I have been thinking of my "what ifs" in life, like what if I never moved overseas, or what if I decided to go to school back east, or "I should have done this or that" or never should have picked this route...and I have come to the conclusion that you just can't look back and "wonder" about all the what if's. Because it can make you crazy with regret, maybe sorrow or depression and there are NO time machines, and life is not going to wait for me to finally figure out that I need to just be happy with where I am at now. OK... so I will probably never be a tennis star,(HA) but its not too late to develop talents and grow as a woman, wife and mother.
WOW! I must be having a bit of a midlife crisis...I am getting too DEEP even for me, hahaha! ;) I must be having a bit of regret turning 35 and a friend told me that 35 rounds up to 40? AAAAAhhhhh! ;(
I am sooo grateful for being a mother, it is a hard job but so rewarding, hearing Leilani's first giggles and seeing her smile is a dream come true! I feel very blessed to be able to have children and to teach them the gospel. I love my girls, they really are a joy to me, how lucky I feel. Naomi is such a loving helpful big sister. She always gives me a play by play of what is happening with Lei Lei or (MElani). She will be such a great friend and motherly figure to Lei Lei as the years go by. I need to take more joy in this. I am also grateful for being a wife, sister, friend, and a daughter, and a teacher, and all other blessings in my life, which are plenty!
Thanks for reading! ;)
